get stuffed

Happy Turkey Day, y'all.

I've been really bad about updating over here. I've been doing more posting over at my livejournal. I also uploaded a bunch of photos to my flickr.

Grammar Pet Peeve #4

Okay, people. Let's get something straight. It's "gardening SHEARS". As in a gardening tool similar to scissors used to SHEAR things. SHEAR as in to remove by cutting or clipping. IT IS NOT "gardening SHEERS". Unless perchance they are the nylons you wear while gardening, or the curtains you employ when gardening. If you are referring to the implement used to cut grass or hedges it is SHEARS!!!! GET IT RIGHT!

Things that make me go GGRRRRRR

You know something that REALLY chaps my ass? When you're talking to someone, and they don't even have the fucking common courtesy to look at you or at least say hmmm, yeah, or anything to acknowledge that yeah, I hear ya. And then they just walk off. Total stranger.. fine, fuck you, you rude asshole. But your mom? She does that to me ALL the fucking time, and it's really making me bat shit crazy. CrazIER.

So tired. Another washing machine down. Another tire down. I must hard on things or something. Do not buy these or you will regret it. I ate every one of them. Ebay is evil and causes more of my money to go down the drain. On things such as this, this, and this. Ok, now go here.

because i only like my spam fried with mustard

Ok, I didn't want to have to do it, but I am going to have to. Not that I get a lot of comments or anything, yanno, but I've had to enable the thingy where you have to type in a word to prove you're human to make a comment as I am really tired of deleting freakin' spam.

cuz i'm freeeee as a bird now

bwhahahahaha janet ain't got nothin' on this dude

Busy. Tired. Here. Go look at pictures. 

coulda, woulda, shoulda

my head
it knows
the reason they left
it wasn't me
but
my heart
it won't listen.
my head
tells my heart
i am good enough
smart, pretty, funny
enough.
i treated them right.
only thing i did wrong
was expect too much
of them.
men.
i like them big
and bad.
the bigger they are
the harder i fall
and the more i hurt.
masochistic i suppose.
those little guys
they never had a
chance
and the only thing
they did wrong
was expect too much
from me.
i'm sorry for that.

the prodigal returneth

You'd think having to spend $500 to get an internet connection faster than 24.6 that they'd get it hooked up quicker'n two weeks. But, no. So... finally! I'm baaack! I have been busier than a one-armed paper hanger lately trying to get this money pit habitable. Yes, still. Yesterday... the washer caught on fire. That was fun. The floor underneath it and the dryer needs to be replaced so we can finish the tile and put the new washer and dryer in but I haven't had any help lately. Well, I guess that's one way to get it done! That's the last major inside project. Then it's on to finish the major outside projects. New siding (well, I gotta a redneck version of that planned) for one. It would help if it would cool off some and make it easier to work outside. At least it finally quit raining. Here a while back we had a big ole flood. I live across the Brazos River from town. It doesn't flood often, but when it does, watch out. Had to drive the long way to town for several days. I'm glad my ancestors had the forethought to build BY the river, not ON the river. These fools' houses get flooded out when it does come up. We just have to make a longer trip to town. I'd rather drive an extra hour than that. I'm just glad it's not New Orleans. It makes me heartsick what is going on down there. Especially as it's my favorite city. I can't even watch the news or talk about it without getting choked up or wanting to choke someone.
I haven't a clue what my new server email is, I don't use them anyways. Anyone wants to email me it's still ninafayeATgmail.com. Anyone wants to Yahoo! me, it's starrytxnights. Anyone wants to call me, either you have the digits or you can get them. Anyone wants to anything else me... well, we'll discuss.

Yes, I live. I haven't had access to the net for a little over a month now. I got the phone line installed for dial-up, but as the connection would only ever be 28.8 I haven't gone and got an account yet. In a few weeks, I'm going to go get wireless broadband. I would have got it sooner, but it's $400 to get the equipment. Gotta love the country. I do really, but it is harder and more expensive to get "advanced technology". So, it won't be long before I'm bloggin' at ya regular. I have been somewhat keeping up the photo blog thingy over there to the left, but the internet on the cell is spotty at best. It took me a month to get the house liveable. I single-handedly cleaned and painted the walls in 3 bedrooms, 2 baths, living room and kitchen. Ripped up all the carpet and installed floor tile. Installed 3 a/c's, 3 ceiling fans, a light fixture and lord knows what else. It took a lot of work to get the place habitable and there is still lots to do. It has been a little over a month since we moved in and there are still boxes everywhere. So, it will probably take another month to get everything in place. Let's not even talk about the outside. I am not even going to mess with the yard and the surrounding acres (and there are plenty of them) until this winter and next spring. It is too damn hot to do much. Well, I think the ice cream freezer is about done so I'm off! Hope everyone is doing well. Holler.

I don't know why I'm telling you this...

but I've been walking around for gawd knows how long with my shoes on the wrong feet.

yum... crow

So, yeah, once again I'm being reminded to never say never. You'd think I'd have learned by now. What's that song? Some fools never learn... Anyway. I'm moving back to Graham. More on that later.

miz jett's been laid up by a low-flying tractor and is hopped up on pain meds and she's giving stuff away! enter to win!

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Bronchitis sucks. It sucks the life right out of me. I have a million things to say, and the energy to say only that.

I have a new toy

If you'll look over there to the left you'll see it. I'll be using my camera phone to update my moblog at least once a day. Who knows what I'll see that will end up there.

Yeah, Jewel sucks but I love the lyrics

I will meet you
In some place
Where the light lends itself
To soft repose
I will let you undress me
But I warn you
I have thorns like any rose

You could hurt me
with your bare hands
You could hurt me
Using the sharp end of what you say
But I'm lost to you now
And there's no amount of reason
That could save me

So break me
Take me
Just let me feel your arms again
Break me
I'll let you make me
Just let me feel your love again

Feels like being underwater
Now that I've let go
And lost control
Water kisses fill my mouth
Water fills my soul

Kiss me once
Well, maybe twice

Just let me feel your love again

What month is this?

This weather SUCKS! The first of May and I'm having to turn the HEAT on?? Normally by this time of the year we are already having to turn the A/C on. What is up with this crazy weather? Everyone else is all happy about it, they love the cold, blah blah. I say STFU people. I hate cold weather, it makes me hurt. And in case you can't tell that makes me a little bit bitchy. I'm finally over the sinus thing, after it got so bad that my jaws, teeth and the bones in my face were in excruciating pain.
I'm a little ticked off at my computer as well. I sat down in front of it the other morning and opened up Firefox and was like what the hell?!? Somehow it went crazy and changed my homepage and DELETED ALL MY FRIGGING BOOKMARKS! I finally uninstalled it and reinstalled it and found an old copy of the bookmark file. So, that left me with only losing, oh, I don't know... 100 or so of them? grrr If any of y'all know of anything I should be reading, let me know since I'm kind of lost here without my bookmarks.
My brother called today. He's been clearing off the family land. Being a packrat and a hoarder of junk tends to run in the family. My brother, however, didn't get that gene. He said so far he has hauled off 8 old refrigerators and freezers, 2 washers, 3 dryers, a water heater, at least 30 old 50 gallon drums and LORD knows what else from out there. I had forgotten that my grandfather used some of the old freezers for horse troughs and such. heh Repurposing at its best. He also mowed all of the land (I forget how many acres total, but it's a bunch) and said he uncovered trailers more junk when he did. I know it will look great when he's all done, but it's also kind of sad because that stuff has been there for so many years and it always reminds me of my Papaw. Course, I don't need that stuff to remember him. It will be nice to be able to see everything, the old buildings and such, without all the weeds and crap in the way. I don't ever want to go back there and live again, but it's home and it is a beautiful bit of land with a lot of great history. My great grandfather bought it from the Bureau of Indian Affairs many years ago. I can't say as how I like that the Indians lived there and were ran off, but there isn't anything I can do about that now other than honor the fact that they once called it home, too. The next time I go back I have to remember to go down into the back pasture and take some photos of the creek bed running from the river (the Brazos). There are some really cool carving in some of the rocks. I have always wondered who it was that put them there, and why.
Well, I seem to be running off on a tangent and can't think of any way to end it gracefully now, so I'll just leave it there. Adios.

Return of the Killer Hayfever

I just thought I was going to get away without being sick this spring. That's what I get for thinking. I had a big allergy flare-up over a week ago and it is still hanging strong. Headache, chest hurts, coughing, sneezing, eyes burn, I've blown my nose so much it and my top lip are raw. Oohhh, and let's not forget the fever blister. GRRRRR
Anyways, needless to say I haven't accomplished much. Well, other than running over a guy in the Dollar Store parking lot. Ok, not a guy, but a guy in his car. Dumb fucker shouldn't have pulled in behind me. Now I am having to fight with my insurance company and his insurance company. He walked into my insurance agency the day after it happened with an estimate for $800 and said "you can just cut me a check now". They were like.. uhhh, it doesn't exactly work that way, sir. The damn car isn't worth that much and there is no way that a dent the size of my pinky finger is going to cost that much to fix. Not to mention, it was just as much his fault as mine so I shouldn't have to pay. Yeah, let's not talk about that anymore. Hey, in the good news department, I finally got approved for my disability insurance. I can't believe it only took 6 months. I thought I was going to have to get a lawyer and fight them for years on it. Either I'm worse off than I thought healthwise, or I actually got lucky for once. So... yay! Monthly paycheck! and back pay! I cannot wait to get some furniture up in here. I really need to finish painting so it doesn't look all half-assed when I do get some new stuff. Anyone want to help? *pweaaassee with big puppy dog eyes* Yeah, that's what I thought, you assholes.
Speaking of assholes, I have been thinking about Brad (Willa's biological father) a whole lot here lately. Every guy I see looks like him, all that stuff. I don't know why either. I mean, it's not like there is any love involved like with John, who I think about from the time I get up to the time I go to bed about a million times. (obsessive much?) I guess I should get hold of him (Brad, that is) and see if everything is okay. Can't say why I would really care, but I'm just that kind of person. I won't be getting hold of John, as he obviously doesn't want anything to do with me. His loss. Right..soo.. I hear that key lime pie calling my name. Bye!

Edited to add: Yeah, I won't be checking in on Brad. I checked his profile. Fucking radar. I should have known.

Domestic Goddess

Today I painted my kitchen the most luscious shade of aqua. Very retro. Yay for oops! paint from Home Depot!! 5 dollar makeover! I didn't do the 4th wall that ties into the hall as I ran out of paint, but that's cool because I was inspired to paint it a different color and take it down the hall so it all comes together nicely. I am hoping to find a great lime/apple green on the oops rack. If not, hopefully they will have something that will contrast with the aqua. I am going to do all of the trim in orange. BRIGHT orange! The color that was in there was this putrid butterscotch pudding and it sucked up every bit of light and was sooo depressing. It is SO much brighter in there now! Then I'm going to do the bathroom. Currently it is a very sickly shade of greenish-yellowish-somethingish. Doesn't make for good light. I look in the mirror in the bathroom and think "Oh, what is wrong with my skin" and then remember it's the reflection from the paint. I just bought new towels and such in this fabulous shade of lavender so I am hoping to find a shade that goes with that. One of these days I'll get around to the living room. I'm thinking pink, but I'll have to see what kind of furniture I find when I get my "inheritance" money. I will be so glad to finally have a REAL couch! I've had that stupid futon for 4 or so years and when it broke I just had to leave the mattress on the floor. How college. I have been drooling over some red sofas and loveseats, but think I'd get tired of them after a few years, so I'll probably go with something more neutral. Much easier and cheaper to change throw pillows and paint than it is to change the furniture. I don't know that I'll be doing any painting in the bedrooms. I'm really not planning on staying here that long, but I will be here at least 9 more months so I figured as cheap as the paint is I shouldn't have to be depressed by the walls here for the time I am here. I will definitely be buying new beds though. NEW! BEDS!!!! I've never in my life had one of those. It's always been hand-me-down mattresses and frames. Actually, I've never had any new furniture except for the futon from hell and my new dining table (that was a whopping $150). I am also going to be replacing that with a slightly bigger one as this one just seats four and I need one that seats six. I'm thinking that 11 thou is going to go pretty fast. I'm getting my teeth fixed, new glasses and some other stuff as well. May as well get it while the getting is good. I won't be having any more money for a while. I am thankful that I will have this though. Well, I am off to read my verra Scottish novel. Until next time!